"I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way"

I'd like to say that this song is only part of one of my stories, and not a part of mine.

Stolen from 's journal! I'm so bored today XD It's the second test I do today!

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A
- Available: In theory, yes. In fact, no.
- Age: 20
- Annoyance: some people's attitudes
- Allergic: Some kind of soap
- Animal: crow
- Actor: Johnny Depp is the first one

B
- Beer: <3 <3 <3
- Birthday/Birthplace: 15th april 1989, Tuscany, Italy.
- Best Friends: Giulia, she means "forever" for me ^^
- Body Part on opposite sex: >.>
- Best feeling in the world: of course when you feel love, not in its strict sense... love for one, for friends, for people in general... True love.
- Blind or Deaf: sometimes deaf, but now I feel quite balanced ^^
- Best weather: it depends by day. Sometimes bright sun, sometimes tha rain is my best companion
- Been in Love: that's why I answered like this two questions ago
- Been bitched out? Sometimes, this year many times in fact
- Been on stage? Yes when I was a child ^^
- Believe in yourself? It depends, in general I'm able to
- Believe in life on other planets: I decided I will think of the problem when a starship will arrive on my roof.
- Believe in miracles: Yes
- Believe in Magic: Don't know
- Believe in God: yes
- Believe in Satan: Yes I do
- Believe in Santa: Forever and ever ;D
- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: of course I do
- Believe in Evolution: yes but not as a scientist believes in it

C
- Car: me, my mum and my bro share a fantastic, dear, old and light blue Fiat 500
- Candy: I don't like so much candies ^^"
- Colour: red red red!
- Cried in school: Rivers and rivers of tears XD
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate, Vanilla is too much sweet
- Chinese/Mexican: both of them!
- Cake or pie: cake
- Countries to visit: Scotland, Canada, London, Russia, Scandinavia... All hooooot places And I have to come back in Paris. As always, I have to come back in Paris

D
- Day or Night: both, but I'm a creature of the night
- Dream vehicle: closed eyes
- Danced: I don't like dancing..
- Dance in the rain? Walk in the rain, laugh in the rain, run in the rain.. not dance
- Dance in the middle of the street? Yes it happened
- Do the splits? I can’t.

E
- Eggs: not my favourite food but i like them!
- Eyes: dark brown
- Everyone has: a personality that no one will be able to know at all
- Ever failed a class? No.

F
- First crush: I don't know, my first crush turned into my first love so I don't like to call it "crush" XD
- Full name: Maria Chiara Teresa Elisabetta
- First thoughts waking up: What time is it?
- Food: almost anything

G
- Greatest Fear: me, from a certain point of view. Some of my friends from the opposite one.
- Giver or taker: Both, if you want a good relationship
- Goals: Finish my studies and create a new newspaper (dream dream dream...)
- Gum: Daygum microtech XD
- Get along with your parents? Yes
- Good luck charms: a particular pen for exams, and ladybirds everywhere ^^

H
- Hair Colour: dark brown
- Height: 1.64, I can look in a dwarf's eyes XD
- Happy: Yes I am
- Holidays: a necessity!
- How do you want to die: not slowly, I don't want to desire a fast end of my beautiful life!
- Health freak?: I'm not afraid from illness
- Hate: hypocrisy and envy

I
(In guys/girls)
- Eye colour: Green
- Hair Colour: Black
- Height: taller than me
- Clothing Style: the way he prefers, no prob ^^
- Characteristics: my ideal guy? a difficult person to understand, a sort of dark mistery ^^
- Ice Cream: When it's really really hot I love lemon. In general I like all kind of ice creams, there are only few exceptions
- Instrument: I loved when I used to play my flute..

J
- Jewelry: nothing important
- Job: student

K
- Kids: Oh yeah I like kids. I don't have kids. I don't think I'll have kids right now XD
- Kickboxing or karate: kickboxing
- Keep a journal?: not exactly

L
- Longest Car Ride: nothing special
- Love: "the gratest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return"
- Letter: I love the letter of my name, C. And also the S.
- Laughed so hard you cried: Too many times!^^
- Love at first sight: I don't believe in it, no.

M
- Milk flavour: milk
- Movie: Casablanca is the first in my heart
- Mooned anyone?: O_O what???
- Marriage: with the right person
- Motion sickness?: only on a car >.>
- McD's or BK: i don't know what bk is, but i hate mcD's

N
- Number of Siblings: my big brother <3
- Number of Piercings: no one
- Number: 7

O
- Overused Phrases: "No prob" and something in italian I can't translate: "Bona cisi!!!" XD
- One wish: nothing I can write here XD
- One phobia: to be not strong enough

P
- Place you'd like to live: Paris or in my city
- Pepsi/Coke: No one

Q
- Quail: when I understand I'm totally alone
- Questionnaires: when I don't have anything to do

R
- Reason to cry: when everything changes not in the way you thought and you don't understand anything and anyone no more
- Reality T.V.: one of the reasons to cry XD
- Radio Station: erredieffe 102.7 ^^
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: I'm not able!

S
- Song: many and many
- Shoe size: 39
- Sushi: <3
- Skipped school: only the first hour, sometimes
- Slept outside: not for a whole night, I'll do it
- Seen a dead body?: yes.
- Smoked?: Yes, cigarette, but I didn't like it at all; cigare, interesting, but not for me; hookah (with water and with alcool XD), a passion XD
- Skinny dipped?: O.o
- Shower daily?: not daily
- Sing well?: I used to sing better when i was younger
- In the shower?: sometimes
- Swear?: when I'm absolutely sure
- Stuffed Animals?: absolutely no
- Single/Group dates: O.o
- Strawberries/Blueberries: strawberries
- Scientists need to invent: I agree with choryunami about the teleport

T
- Time for bed: when i wanna sleep!
- Thunderstorms: One of the best shows you can ever see, by Nature ^^
- Touch your tongue to your nose?: I can't

U
- Unpredictable: sometimes
- Under the influence?: Mine
- Understanding?: More last months, now I'm a little bit tired

V
- Vegetable you hate: i like vegetables!!
- Vegetable you love: spinach!
- Vacation spot: anywhere, the essential is to leave ^^

W
- Weakness: I can't take the right distances
- When you grow up: I hope I'll be wiser
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: Diana ^^
- Who makes you laugh the most: my friends in general, a special place to Giulia and to Giacomo ^^
- Worst feeling: lonelyness and incomprehension
- Wanted to be a model?: No thanx
- Where do we go when we die: I hope in Paradise XD
- Worst weather: When there are rainy clouds but it doesn't rain
- Walk with a book on your head?: I'm dangerous XD

X
- X-Rays: X-men XD

Y
-Year it is now: 2009
-Yellow: the colour I hate the most XD even if I love sunflowers

Z
- Zoo animal: So many years I don't go to a zoo
- Zodiac sign: Aries, and in fact I feel quite an aries ^^

I found this wonderful test in 's journal, and I can't resist! XD

Centaur:
[ ] You are rather wild, and let your instincts run you.
[ ] You get drunk a lot.
[ ] Bravery and boldness is second nature to you.
[x] You have a deep love for astronomy and the universe.
[x] You like to read your daily horoscope.
[x] You have a high level of pride in yourself.
[ ] In the woods is the best place for you to be.
[x] You are spiritual.
[ ] The horse is your favorite animal.
[x] You are possessive and territorial.
Total: 5

Elf:
[ ] Your ears are slightly pointed at the tips (be honest).
[x] You are very intelligent. (I'M HONEST XD)
[ ] Your five senses are extremely keen.
[ ] Your weight is quite a bit lighter than the average person at your particular height.
[ ] You always wear elegant clothes and speak as politely as possible.
[x] You are most at peace when you are gazing at something beautiful, like nature.
[ ] You look very young for your age.
[ ] You rarely get sick.
[x] You are a very hard worker.
[x] Above all other superpowers, you would love to read minds or see the future.
Total: 4

Fairy:
[x] You are happy a lot of the time.
[ ] The best superpower to you would be to fly.
[ ] You are very shy.
[ ] You love the forest and plant life in general.
[x] You are always willing to help others, even if you might not be the best to offer aid.
[ ] You are young and short.
[ ] Dancing is one of your favorite pastimes.
[ ] If someone ticks you off, you are very clever with getting them back.
[x] Your clothing isn't always presentable, but you are comfortable with what you wear.
[ ] Circles are a wonderful symbol of unity to you.
Total:3

Gnome/Dwarf:
[ ] You are excellent with crafts and handiwork.
[ ] In social situations, you tend to be a little awkward.
[ ] You are short for your age.
[ ] You are an isolationist.
[ ] You love to play practical jokes on people.
[ ] You are extremely fascinated with jewelry.
[ ] You look older than your age.
[x] You love the woods and the mountains.
[ ] You are well off, or come from a family that is well off.
[ ] You have a short temper.
Total: 1

Harpy/Siren:
[ ] You are best at talking bad about people behind their backs and not to their face.
[ ] When you are annoyed, you will go to a great extent to torment whoever did so to you.
[ ] You often take things that aren't yours.
[ ] You are easily angered.
[x] Death fascinates you.
[x] You are female, or a feminine-looking man.
[ ] You associate yourself with the wind element.
[x] You can switch quickly between your light and dark side.
[ ] You love to trick others.
[ ] You have a ravenous appetite.
Total: 3

Mermaid:
[x] You love the beach moreso because of the water than the shore itself.
[ ] Fish are some of the most beautiful creatures to you.
[ ] The ultimate superpower to you would be to breathe underwater.
[x] You enjoy looking at ships, but not riding them, as well as you like ships for traveling, not hunting in the sea.
[ ] You are good at swimming.
[ ] You like to collect shells.
[ ] You use sea items as jewelry or decoration.
[ ] You enjoy learning about the ocean and the life inside it.
[ ] You are extremely against ocean pollution, and someday, perhaps (if you haven't already), you will work to stop that.
[ ] Legs on land are not as important as a fin in the sea.
Total: 2

Vampire:
[x] You're a night person.
[x] You have a fascination with blood.
[ ] You are extremely pale.
[x] You wish you had a bat as a pet.
[ ] You are not religious at all.
[x] Tight spaces are not scary or uncomfortable for you.
[ ] The sun's glare annoys you all too often.
[x] You hate food with lots of garlic in it.
[x] To you, a kiss on the neck is more romantic than a kiss on the cheek or lips.
[ ] You don't like sharp objects near you.
Total: 6

Werewolf:
[ ] The full moon is the most beautiful scene to you.
[ ] You have a lot of body hair.
[ ] The ability to shapeshift is the best superpower to you.
[ ] You prefer gold over silver items.
[ ] You lack self control.
[ ] You find it easier to have sympathy for animals than for humans.
[x] You have a deep respect for wolves and wild dogs.
[x] You like to be alone.
[ ] You have a terrible secret and you only tell people you trust 100% about it.
[ ] You'd rather be outdoors than indoors.
Total:2

Wizard/Witch:
[ ] You love chemistry.
[x] You are intuitive and good at analyzing people, to the point that people seriously or jokingly say you're psychic.
[ ] The most amazing supernatural power to you is controlling the elements.
[x] You are a nature lover.
[x] You have a strong sense of responsibility.
[ ] You spend a lot of time alone.
[ ] You usually hang around with a certain animal all the time when you feel lonely.
[ ] You are spiritual, but not necessarily religious.
[x] Cooking is one of your favorite things to do.
[x] You enjoy learning about Wicca and the occult.
Total:5

Zombie:
[ ] You are pale
[ ] You are hungry a lot.
[ ] Many activities you do every day make you feel mindless, or like a drone.
[ ] Most of the time you or a part of you is cold.
[x] You love to eat meat.
[ ] You would resort to cannibalism if that was the only source of food.
[ ] You make grunts and moans a lot
[ ] You usually walk slow.
[x] You are not afraid of seeing a lot of blood or getting a lot of blood on yourself.
Total: 2

Satyr/Faun:
[x] You are very passionate about the things you like.
[ ] You like to get drunk and dance.
[ ] You're very amorous.
[x] You like art and music.
[x] You enjoy feasting with friends.
[x] You love nature but more for the animals than the trees and plants.
[ ] You like getting rowdy and having a good time.
[x] You laugh a lot.
[ ] You love the chase almost as much as the capture.
[ ] You wish you had horns.
Total: 5

Finally I'm a vampire! I had to suppose that, I think...XD XD XD

Got tagged by ^_^


RULES:
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1. Post these rules

2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves on their journal.

3. At the end you have to choose 8 people to tag, and post their icons on the same journal.

4. Go to their page and send a message saying you tagged them.

5. No tag-backs.

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1- Here it's so hot and this computer is even hotter, and sometimes I'd like to switch it off 'cause I feel like it is going to transform my bedroom in a hell XD

2- While I'm here my lovely bunny is jumping in the corridor

3- I have to pass a very difficult exam, about history, and I don't know how to do 'cause I'm a real disaster with dates or events or politician's names... In fact, I'm a total disaster if we're talking about memory!

4- I want a tattoo. A crow's feather on my right ankle. Everybody told me that on the ankle it hurts too much, but that's one of the things I want to do!

5- During this period I'm persecuted by some songs. They enter in my mind and I'm not able to get concentrate 'cause there's this melody which insist in my mind while I'm trying to study. Generally only italian songs. Wonderful songs, eh, but it's a really obsession!

6- I'm really tired, I want to go on holydays, even if this means that I have to go in a camp where I'll be responsible of I think 90 young girls XD I'm a voulonteer, and I do sadistic things like this one!

7- I'm a night creature, I had problems for sleeping even when I was a child

8- I fell in love with Arthur Rimbaud, the poet of the poets, a king of French Literature, ma passion ^^ I was shocked by his farwell to poetry when he was only twenty, and I felt his defeat as it was mine.



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Well, I tag these ones:


If you want do this game, if not no prob ^^

I waited so much for this spring, and now that here it is, it seems it carries with her a crazy air. I think I'm gonna kill someone if something doesn't move, right here.
Tonight one of my best friends call me in the middle of the night crying, 'cause she discovers that her boyfriend (from 1 year and 3 months) betrayed her, and now it's all over.
Few days ago I discovered that two of my dearest friends were absolutely untrue with me, and they said so many things against me when I wasn't there with them. Always the same blames: I control people, I'm a friend only when it is useful for me, and lots of stupid things that hurt me too much, 'cause I can't admit that someone can judge me so heavily even if they know me. 'Cause I was sure they know me, but in fact it seems I was wrong.

God, but how much it hurts? I lost two friends, and I can't accept that they weren't really my friends. I feel so stupid.

It will pass. Now that's my new slogan. How is it sad? Months ago it was "Think pink" and "Hold fast" and many things so hopeful and strong. Now a miserable "It will pass". But I'm so tired to be misunderstood, so weak to keep all these problems I have to face.
I'd like to sleep as a bear, and wake up when everything will be ok.

Ok, it will pass. That's enough.