Hating new spring's air
MiserableTonight one of my best friends call me in the middle of the night crying, 'cause she discovers that her boyfriend (from 1 year and 3 months) betrayed her, and now it's all over.
Few days ago I discovered that two of my dearest friends were absolutely untrue with me, and they said so many things against me when I wasn't there with them. Always the same blames: I control people, I'm a friend only when it is useful for me, and lots of stupid things that hurt me too much, 'cause I can't admit that someone can judge me so heavily even if they know me. 'Cause I was sure they know me, but in fact it seems I was wrong.
God, but how much it hurts? I lost two friends, and I can't accept that they weren't really my friends. I feel so stupid.
It will pass. Now that's my new slogan. How is it sad? Months ago it was "Think pink" and "Hold fast" and many things so hopeful and strong. Now a miserable "It will pass". But I'm so tired to be misunderstood, so weak to keep all these problems I have to face.
I'd like to sleep as a bear, and wake up when everything will be ok.
Ok, it will pass. That's enough.
Devious Comments
I'm sorry for all that... (and sorry if I didn't write you anything else, after last Easter night, but I thought you would have let me know more news, before... but maybe it's already my turn again to write?) ...I'm sorry because right now I don't know exactly what I can do (as always...)... maybe this should take a good conversation, more than a long letter... It could be easier. Or more useful... I don't know. Maybe just... closer.
And please, don't hate Spring: it's the only thing that keeps me alive...
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-Watashiwa Orochimaru-sama no shinobi desu.-
-If you have ever thrown a fake shuriken, kunai, or attempted a jutsu, copy and paste this into your signature. - Bonus points if it was a real shuriken.
-My two lovely lonely neurons:
Anyway, I don't have anything to say more than what I wrote you. In fact, I was waiting for few words from you
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"My deamons will be yours"
“Am I dead?”
“Hear.”
“… My heart?”
“Yes. Even if you’ve tried, you’ve never stopped it.”
Well, I was just waiting to know if my Easter e-mail had arrived... since I risked my life to write it.
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-Watashiwa Orochimaru-sama no shinobi desu.-
-If you have ever thrown a fake shuriken, kunai, or attempted a jutsu, copy and paste this into your signature. - Bonus points if it was a real shuriken.
-My two lovely lonely neurons:
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Art is a bang! "Deidara"...perchè hai perso? com'è successo?! non dovevi permettertelo!!
ma winzippami il floppino sasu!!
"The one who is not afraid of his sword_is not worth hold it" Shuuhei Hisagi
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